Inner Dialogue

I had a sort of insight recently. Something I already knew, but maybe just didn't connect the dots on. It seems like whenever I think about what I want to do for fun, or on a date, or something like that, it's always low key. I'd much rather watch a movie at home, or sit out under the stars and talk, or just go for a walk. Parties and adventures and travel doesn't even sound good right now. I think that's because the last five years have involved so much change, so much transition, so much chaos, that all I really want to do is stop and breathe. So much of that involved events outside of my control. There wasn't much time to just relax and recharge. Still isn't, even though some of those factors have gone away. Sure, I like meeting people and I like going places. But for a while, at least, I'd rather just be still.