Inner Dialogue

I sort of had this fantasy of life being easy for a while... let's wait to start a doctoral program, let things settle in and settle down, take a breather for a while. This summer was exceptionally easy and I think I got a little spoiled. Or maybe I just got a taste of how I wanted things to be.

Yesterday I was in a lecture and the speaker told a story. The main character had to face some challenges and after the first one thought to himself, "hey, that wasn't so bad... it was easy". The speaker said something like "In a story like this, when you have thinking like that, bad things are bound to happen." I think that's the problem! I got into an easy frame of mind. I know from experience that those times are usually just when I get slammed with something major. Tomorrow I have to get something checked out that has been concerning me since about June and it might be the something major I was cautious about. Or it might be nothing. I'm a little worried, but what is making it easy is having someone who is strong enough to hold me tight when all I want to do is fly away. That's no small feat given my tendency to plow through life full steam ahead, and for his strength, I am thankful.