Inner Dialogue

For about two weeks now, I've had this prevailing gloomy feeling that I just haven't been able to shake. I'm sure it started with the chaos at work created by someone else and was just compounded by several major events filled with negative energy directed my way, including some physical problems that are just wearing me down. Toss in some big changes in living spaces and an insane pace of life in general and there hasn't been much time to think about any of it, just to plow through it. Home seems to have been an extension of the chaos at work, so I've been finding myself becoming engulfed in negative thoughts and feelings, with no place to go to unwind from it all. When that happens, I tend to want to hole up until the feelings pass so that the negative stuff inside doesn't spill out on the people outside. Always easier said than done.

For some reason last night, something I read the other day clicked into place. It was talking about a spiritual assault, about that being one of the ways that a wedge is driven into relationships, with partners, with children, with friends, and even with God himself. That phrase... spiritual assault... is exactly what it has felt like. Seems like stuff has been coming at me nonstop from all directions lately, to the point where I am almost numb. So... now that I think I know what is happening... I just need to figure out what to do about it.