he asked
A year ago, this month was a very busy one. It was an emotional roller coaster, one in which my oldest son left the nest, troubles at work began, new friends emerged, students inspired me, and a relationship that began as a random friendship took an unexpected twist one late night under the stars sitting on a trampoline. It's not always easy to pinpoint the moment when someone begins to look different to you, when your perspective on who they are shifts ever so slightly from "that cool guy" to "someone I might be interested in". Whatever it was, it happened that night and for reasons we don't entirely understand, things started to change in wonderfully mysterious ways. From that point forward, there really was no holding back, and even if I had wanted to, I'm not sure I could have.
From the earliest days when this journal turned away from primarily academia and became a place to chronicle my personal journey, I often contemplated what I wanted and needed in a partner. Those that have followed my story have learned of the quest to discover who I am and what is important in life, of the desire to share that life with a partner who could love, cherish, inspire, and teach me as we walked along the path together. He needed to be able to handle a strong woman without feeling threatened by my very nature. He needed to be compatible with my ideals and needs. He needed to speak the love languages I so desperately needed to hear. He needed to fit into my vision of what romantic love should be all about. An idealist and a dreamer often has a hard time finding a place in this world of harsh realities, but I held on tight to what I believed to be true. What else could I do?
This week, one year to the date of the beginning of this romance, I was asked if I would pledge my heart for all time to one man, and one man alone, if I would be willing to humble myself and follow an unfamiliar path into territories unknown, if I would trust his love to take care of me and His love to show me the way. I thought deeply about what that might mean, and in the end, there is no place I would rather be than by his side, learning and loving and taking on whatever adventures come our way. This isn't the end of a romance... it's the beginning of something much deeper and much more amazing. I pray that I never lose sight of just how blessed I truly am :D
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