Inner Dialogue

I was just reading through some info sent by one of the universities I am checking out. I started getting a little excited about the prospect of diving into a doc program. But then reality set in and I began to wonder just what path I should be taking now? There is so much conflict right now between the professional and personal aspects of my life. There is a tension of opposites that is pulling me in different directions. I want to go back to school. I want to stay home with the kids. I want to do more with outreach at the college. I want to spend time building relationships. Personal. Social. Introvert. Extrovert. Put down roots. Start all over. It would be nice if some of these things were compatible with others, but that doesn't seem to be the case. Is this another lesson in letting go? In having faith? In patience and perseverance?