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February 24, 2008

gratitude

My heart is full this morning with gratitude for those in my life that see who I am, seek to understand what I am all about, and who are striving to do their best to make the world around them a better place. It is a pleasure, and a humbling experience, to be around people who know how to focus outward instead of on themselves all the time. I am also grateful for:

1) warm fires on chilly winter nights
2) a home where friends and family feel welcome
3) snuggles
4) puppy dog kisses
5) someone to love that is as obstinate and stubborn as I am!

January 14, 2008

home office

I'm working at home today because we have a sick child. I'm sitting at my "home office" table, looking out the window at the beautiful view. I'm really blessed that I have a job that is so flexible and that enables me to meet the needs of my family is a way that works best for all of us.

September 12, 2007

easy

I sort of had this fantasy of life being easy for a while... let's wait to start a doctoral program, let things settle in and settle down, take a breather for a while. This summer was exceptionally easy and I think I got a little spoiled. Or maybe I just got a taste of how I wanted things to be.

Yesterday I was in a lecture and the speaker told a story. The main character had to face some challenges and after the first one thought to himself, "hey, that wasn't so bad... it was easy". The speaker said something like "In a story like this, when you have thinking like that, bad things are bound to happen." I think that's the problem! I got into an easy frame of mind. I know from experience that those times are usually just when I get slammed with something major. Tomorrow I have to get something checked out that has been concerning me since about June and it might be the something major I was cautious about. Or it might be nothing. I'm a little worried, but what is making it easy is having someone who is strong enough to hold me tight when all I want to do is fly away. That's no small feat given my tendency to plow through life full steam ahead, and for his strength, I am thankful.

August 12, 2007

in the mood

I've been overcome lately with an almost intense feeling of humility, wondering whether or not I am up to the task before me. Am I ready for this? Am I ready for the reality of something I've thought about for a really long time actually happening in *my* life? I'm not so sure. Do I have enough energy to focus on someone else? Am I really who he seems to think I am? This doesn't feel like I thought it would feel... it feels settled, balanced, natural, and normal. Not sure what else I expected. I've written before that I would often know if something was right if I felt a sense of peace about it. I think that's what I am feeling here. Peaceful and very humble.

April 22, 2007

an insight

Driving into work this morning, I spent most of the 25 minutes thinking about what I wrote earlier today. It dawned on me that the major issue at the moment is slack. Not slacking off, but lack of slack time to process deep thoughts and gel them into ideas I can articulate.

And then, when I got here, a message came across my plate that was like a splash of cool water on the firestorm, another subtle arrow under the armor, that told me I am not in it alone. Words can't even express the depth of my feelings for those people in my life that let me know, in so many different ways, that they are there to support me, that they understand what it is I am trying to do. They see me for who I really am and still like me despite my faults. Once again, I am reminded of just how blessed I really am.

December 22, 2006

the semester that friendships were made

I was just sitting here thinking about some of the people that I want to give Christmas gifts to and what I wanted to give to them that would mean something to them. I love giving gifts because it is fun to show people they are special, not because I expect anything in return. So, as I am sitting here thinking, I realized something. This is the semester that friendships were made. I've been at Cerro Coso for three years but this is the first semester that I've been settled in enough to make some personal connections. The first two years involved transition and chaos, more personally than professionally. But this year... this year there are people I really enjoy hanging out with, that I really respect learning with and learning from. It's been a good semester (no matter how busy it was!).

June 24, 2006

Letting people in

Once again, it has been shown to me that people come into your life at just the precise moment you need them to, if you are open to letting them in. As always, I am very blessed with the people in my life.

I went into work Thursday afternoon to try and get some stuff done before having to head to Porterville Friday early. I got home around 9:30pm, sort of numb, hungry, but not up to dealing with people. A friend was here playing games with Nakyta. I just got my book and went out to the swing for a while. Couldn't really read, so I just layed out there. After about 40 minutes, he came out, sort of goofy, and told me I had to come inside to see what he had done. I thought it was something on his game, and I didn't really want to go, but he was so cute about it that I did anyhow. He opened the door for me and pointed to the table. It was all set for dinner, with a bowl of pasta (bowties with chicken and alfredo sauce) and my favorite garlic bread. All I could do was hug him and cry (and you know how much I *love* to cry - NOT). The last thing I had eaten was the scrambled eggs I made for breakfast. The big girls came out and we had a really nice dinner. He finished off the evening by playing his guitar for a while, which I loved. Low key, sort of funny, just the right thing. I don't know how he knew that was exactly what I needed at that particular point in time, but he did, and I am glad.

June 12, 2006

Men

Once again, I am thankful for the men in my life, from my very own dad to the men who have loved, honored, and befriended me. I am thankful for those that bring passion into my life, for those that make me think deeper thoughts about what it means to be happy, and for those on far away shores that keep my happiness in their thoughts and prayers. I am thankful for their strength, their humor, their integrity and their willingness to take a chance on me. What would I do without them?

May 23, 2006

By the light of the moon

I'm sitting out here on what used to be called "the front porch swing". Now it's sort of "the end of the house under the pine trees swing". The night is so dark that I have a coleman lantern hanging on one end. The wind is rustling through the poplar trees and I am kicked back as the swing gently moves back and forth. In the distance, I hear barking dogs, cars on the highway, and a small airplane somewhere far away. It's a perfect place to reflect and write. Very calming. Very peaceful. Very nice.

Mystery Package

So, I get a notice from the Inyo post office saying that a package has arrived from Amazon. You know how excited I get about packages from Amazon! However, off hand I couldn’t remember ordering anything recently, so I checked my account just to make sure I wasn’t sleep-shopping (it’s been known to happen). Nope. Last order was in February. Hmmm… Of course, by the time I got the notice, it was too late to get the package since it was Friday afternoon so I had to wait and wonder all weekend. Poor Amazon package, waiting all lonely in the Inyo post office, just wanting to come home, but there was nothing I could do about it, until Monday morning.

I dropped the kids off Monday at the school right by the Post Office and headed over to discover that, low and behold, the PO didn’t open till 8:30! I was too early! Darn it. Since I had a meeting, I couldn’t just hang around, so away I went, away from my lonely Amazon package. So sad, too bad. On my way home around lunch time, I finally managed to rescue the package from the grips of the United States Postal Service, thinking I’ll just wait the 10 minutes until I get home to open it. Well that resolve lasted about as long as it took me to walk to the car. Keys slid nicely through the tape and in a few seconds the contents were released from their cardboard prison.

And who was the mystery sender, I wondered? A glance at the invoice answered my question… Tom, my TA! He really didn’t have to send me anything… but of anything he could have sent, those were great choices, and very timely. Thank you so much for all that you do for me. You are ALWAYS appreciated!!

May 22, 2006

morning rain

I woke up this morning to a smell that I love...rain. So fresh and clean, washing away the dust in the air and leaving behind that sweet, crisp smell lingering into the day. Love it!

January 01, 2006

Focus Upward

Over the past few months, a friend and I have been exchanging a couple of things we are grateful for each day. What better time to reflect on all of those blessings than the first day of a new year. Here's what's been on my list:

My down comforter ~ Blue jeans ~ A job I love ~ Friends that care ~ Challenges and choices ~ Chocolate fudge cook & serve pudding (warm, of course) ~ Hot chocolate on a cold autumn morning ~ Reliable transportation ~ The price of gas that has gone down ~ Gentle caresses and lingering hugs (good for the body and soul) ~ A purring cat ~ Puppy dog kisses ~ A snuggling child ~ The process that is rolling, wherever it may take me ~ The ability to try and stand outside of myself and think reflectively about what is happening ~ Cell phones and text messages ~ Space heaters ~ Fuzzy socks ~ Goals and a sense of purpose ~ My new washer and dryer ~ Sunrise over the Sierras ~ Moonlit walks by the lake ~ Cheese-its ~ Scrambled eggs ~ Cell phones (even though I can’t stand the one I have!) ~

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December 12, 2005

Men

Tonight I am grateful for all of the men in my life, past and present (yes *all* of them), for the lessons I've learned about how to be a friend, a partner, and a woman. Some of those lessons were very hard to learn, and many of them made me look deep inside at who I am and who I want to be. It's not always easy to listen to their experiences and see reflections of myself but it is always good to be able to look reflectively at what my role is, and should be, in a partnership. Men are unique. Men bring their own perspective and way of doing things. That's not bad, it's just different, and it can enrich our lives. I think if more women accepted and understood that, all sides would be happier. Here's to a new year that embraces and celebrates the strengths of both genders!

November 24, 2005

Thanksgiving

Today, and every day, I am thankful for:

My children who have helped me learn that the most important things in life have nothing to do with myself;

My parents who somehow, despite the trouble I gave them, instilled a solid sense of purpose and self-confidence in me that has taken me through the roller-coaster experiences of life;

My friends who love me unconditionally, who accept me despite my faults, who comfort me when I am sad, and share my successes joyfully;

Those who have become a part of my family for opening themselves up to new experiences, for making me laugh, and for helping me to think outside the box;

Those who randomly enter my life and sometimes just as randomly leave it, for the lessons I've learned with each one of them and for the perspective I have gained through my association with them;

My students who are testing the boundaries of what is known and comfortable to them, who are willing to learn and try new things, and who inspire me on a daily basis to always do better;

People who in any way make my life a little easier, through thought, or word, or deed, and who put a smile on my face and a smile in my heart;

Curiosity about how things work, why people do what they do, and what goes on in the world;

The beauty of the natural world around me and the sense of peace, wonder and connectedness to the larger universe that I feel when surrounded by the majestic mountains or the infinite ocean;

The blessing of passion, about my family, my friends, my chosen vocation, and life in general, because that passion for living is what carries me through the darkest days and gives me hope that the sun will once again shine;

Those that take life head on and deal with adversity with integrity and grace, who are emotionally honest, true to their word, and are generally optimistic about the world;

My teachers, academic and otherwise, who mentor me, show me, encourage me, and challenge me to keep moving forward;

Lessons learned and life experiences that have helped shape me into the person I am today. No regrets, not any of it, at all, because to have regrets would be to deny who I am, and who I am is someone that I am very comfortable with. I am a work in progress, but after all, life is about the process and not the end result, right?

And the list keeps growing. It's amazing when you focus outward how many wonderful things you can see!

August 25, 2005

Good Karma

Thank you friends :-) I love you all!

August 24, 2005

Circle of Friendship

Peita and Kandi and Rene' and Mackenzie and Nakyta and Tom and Gary and Bill and Paul and Micheal and Erik and Kevin and Don ... and all of the others who are focusing positive energy and thoughts toward me tomorrow morning ... your love and concern are deeply felt and appreciated. How can I feel anything but empowered with all of that coming my way? If I start to feel overwhelmed, I will close my eyes for a moment and picture myself surrounded by those who know me best. I am ever mindful of the blessings these people bring into my life!

April 22, 2005

Little things

Once again, I am grateful for friends who know just what to do to lift me up when I need it the most. Little things at just the right time mean a lot. How I ever ended up so blessed, I have no idea, but I thank Heavenly Father constantly for those he has brought into my life.

March 16, 2005

Gratitude

Lest I wallow too long, tonight I am grateful for:

1) Dutch baby pancakes
2) Maple syrup
3) Ice cold milk
4) Writing
5) Sleep

February 28, 2005

An Irish Blessing

May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

January 10, 2005

The Good News

I had a friend and former colleague ask me how things were going. We hadn't talked in a little while, so I gave her the cliff notes version below. When I read it over, I realized I have a heck of a lot to be grateful for. This is what I wrote:

Life in general is good :-) I love my job and the people I am working with. The drive is fantastic. I read (well, listened to) more books in the fall semester than I had a chance to read all year long. If you go to my blog and click the Recent Books button on the left side (scroll down a bit) you’ll see what I listened to. It was awesome :-) I post all sorts of stuff there so it’s a good way to keep up on what’s going on with me.

Let’s see… what else… I got a new golden retriever puppy this summer who is now a moose dog. She’s cool. Hopefully I’ll be showing her in the spring. I’m doing 2 conference presentations at TechEd, one with some colleagues from CC and BC and the other with a Pepperdine prof. Also doing one at NECC in Philly this summer. Writing an article and fleshing out a book idea with the Pepperdine prof.

Got myself a Nikon D-70 digital camera with an additional 70-300mm zoom lens and absolutely loving learning how to take pictures. I can’t even drive to Porterville without pulling over a couple of times to take pictures of the awesome scenery we have around here. Finding a sense of balance after the chaos of divorce last year, and settling in to a new life… kids are doing great in school and at home :-)

January 06, 2005

Note to self

I have the best friends in the world! Enough said :)

December 31, 2004

Rainbows in the Sky

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This picture was taken a few minutes ago from my front porch. Can you think of a more beautiful way to end a year that started with such chaos and turbulence than with Heavenly Father�s promise of new beginnings?

December 23, 2004

Tonight I'm Grateful for...

1) Little girls' hugs and kisses
2) Little boy's uncontrollable giggles at bodily noises
3) New found friends
4) Intelligent conversation
5) Possibilities

October 15, 2004

Under the Stars

Driving home tonight, I rolled back the sun roof and cruised down the road. It was around 10pm, just north of Bakersfield. The night sky was dark and the autumn air had just enough of a chill to hint of winter coming on. I periodically glanced up to see a blanket of stars covering the heavens. Stars always make me think of the enormity of the universe and cause me to wonder about my place in the overall scheme of things. I thought about people that I care about, in far away places, and hoped that they, too, were looking skyward. I like to think that no matter how far the distance, we can still look at the same stars, and in that way be connected in a way that miles cannot keep apart.

October 14, 2004

The Big Picture

Sometimes it is too easy to focus on what is right in front of you instead of looking around and seeing the big picture. On my drive to Ridgecrest twice a week, I could be looking at the tumbleweeds and barren ground instead of the glorious silouettes of the majestic Sierra Nevadas. I could be only seeing dust and rocks and Joshua trees and entirely miss the rainbow of colors in the mountains, skies, and landscape. I could spend 3 hours each way mumbling about the awful drive, complaining about dumb drivers on the road and wishing I was somewhere else. Instead I choose to focus on the quiet time I get to think, the books on CD I am listening to, the music on the radio. In either scenario, the drive isn't any different. The scenery isn't any different. What is different is my attitude and my choice to focus on the big picture instead of worrying about the little stuff. Life is all about choices, isn't it?

June 25, 2004

Good Friends Know...

How to make my day :)

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May 10, 2004

Thank you, Your Honor

Can someone really be ordered to be reasonable and mediate a problem? Apparently, they can. Maybe now something can be accomplished without the anger and animosity. I sure hope so.

April 10, 2004

It's the little things...

...that make the difference:

*an out of the blue text message that makes me smile;
*cleaning out my car without being asked;
*making my bed for no reason;
*cute little notes filled with hugs and kisses;
*getting something off my amazon wish list for me;
*picking out a special charm for my bracelet;
*a thoughtful card just to say thanks.

Those little things mean more to me than anything! They make me feel special and appreciated. How did I get so lucky to be surrounded by such wonderful children and friends?

December 29, 2003

Shake, Rattle, and Roll

I am so grateful to live in the United States. Natural disasters this week drove home that point once more. The central coast earthquake of 6.5 magnitude wrecked a few old buildings and killed two people. The 6.7 quake in Iran, by contrast, killed 25,000 people, flattened two hospitals and ancients places of worship, and wreaked havoc in the whole area.

Yet despite the devestation, the Iranian government is too proud to accept help from Isreal. And despite the claim by President Bush a few years ago that Iran was part of the "axis of evil", the United States has put aside differences to send tons of medical supplies and other help. If the US had suffered a similar tragedy, would those who consider us evil do the same?

November 22, 2003

One-Two-Skip a Few

Missed yesterday... oops!
Mac and Cheese - the good stuff... no generic here! Steaming hot with a glass of ice cold milk. It's the cheesiest!
A car that runs well - enough said;
Blue jeans - to dress up or dress down;
Kurt Vonnegut - never quite know where the story is going, even on the last page;
Humor - and the friends who make me laugh.

November 20, 2003

Thursday night

Code - that gets me thinking, tweaking, troubleshooting, and creating;
Students - who wrap their minds around challenges I toss their way and get excited about the what's up ahead;
Life in the Mountains - the view from the school yesterday was just glorious... how blessed my kids are to go to school up here and not in the fog;
Fog - because its greyness makes the sunshine all the more spectacular;
Cozy Blankets - to snuggle up in with my laptop and some Top Ramen.

November 19, 2003

:)

Wireless Technology - so I can sit where I want and play;
Thought Leaders - who come up with big ideas that give me something to think about;
Little Kids - who think it's cool to sit in the sun under a tree and write in their journals;
Mr. Brown - as one of many awesome teachers I had growing up. He will be missed when he retires this year;
Roquefort Cheese Salad Dressing - oh so tangy, and oh so good!

November 18, 2003

Thankful for...

Teaching - not just for the opportunities it gives me to help others, but for how much a part of me it is;
Text Messages - from friends;
Education - that has opened many doors for me;
Opportunities - to teach, to consult, to create, to earn some extra money;
Blessings from Heaven - even when I don't deserve them.

November 17, 2003

Another Day

The School - that Emilee and Rachel attend, for asking me to sub and letting Matt come along for the day;
Good Books - for helping entertain the little kids and fill time today;
Tacos - quick, easy, and NOT frozen food;
Amazon.com - for shipping my router ASAP, even on super saver shipping mode;
Religion - for giving me, and many others, an iron rod to hold tight to, even when it feels like it is slipping away.

November 16, 2003

Today

Breathing Space - room to think, time to think, space to think;
Questions - from people just asking how I'm doing;
Hot Chocolate - absolutely nothing better on a chilly, foggy afternoon than some extra chocolatly hot cocoa;
Dancing - for bringing joy to the kids... maybe I'll remember how now;
Sleep - just wish I had more of it.

November 15, 2003

It's Been a While

With all that has been going on, it's been easy to forget just what I am grateful for. I think about my blessings all the time, but it's nice to put it into writing so I can look back over them later.

Daniel's Wedding - affirming that love does prevail and the cycle of life continues;
Gavin - for his inquiring mind, good humor, honest heart, and the challenge he presents me with;
Music - to play long and loud... long live Hank Jr.!;
Rainbows - that come from a pot of gold according to Matthew;
Bishop - for his pure love and desire to do what is right, and the peace he helps me find.

August 04, 2003

I'm Thankful...

... for many things this morning.

Friends - who make me think, who listen, who make me feel safe with sharing my emotions;
Children - who make me laugh, make me cry, make me frustrated, and make me experience joy to levels I could never know otherwise;
Faith - to know that things will work out if I just hand it over to Heavenly Father;
Blaze - to give me something to focus on outside of myself and people;
Technology - for giving me mountains to climb, challenges to tackle, problems to solve, and for bringing me closer to people I love.

July 21, 2003

Gratitude

Tonight I am ever so thankful for friends, far and near, who care enough to ask. For those who take the time to listen and understand, for those who make me laugh when I feel like crying... I don't know how I would make it through all this without you!

1) IM - to keep in touch across oceans and continents, and in the next room;
2) Mentors - the opportunity to spend time with someone who is doing what I want to do, who is where I would like to be, has been a wonderful experience;
3) Ocean waves - listening to the rythmic sounds of the waves in the stillness of the early morning, closing my eyes and just taking it all in;
4) Choices - I just need to remember that I DO have choices, I just need to pray for the strength to make the right ones;
5) Music - something to focus on, uplift me, and share with others.

June 20, 2003

Friday morning

Today I am thankful for:

A soft bed - even if I don't get to spend as much time in it as I would like;
Tax Refund - instead of an audit!
Paid Bills - thanks to the tax refund;
Intuition - the ability to ask the right questions at the right time;
June - because that means July is almost here and Pepperdine will be done!

June 06, 2003

Kids Have Gratitude, Too

From Rachel and Emilee:

My family - for the love it brings;
My Lord above - because He helps people and He will help me what I am sad;
My shoes and clothes - because if you didn't have clothes then we couldn't go anywhere.
My Mom and Dad - because they treat me nice;
My sisters and brothers - because they treat me nice too.

June 05, 2003

Catching Up

Somewhere between San Diego and Santa Cruz my gratitude was lost. Not literally, mind you, just put on the back burner for a bit. Let's get rolling again.

Friends - seems like I am always greatful for friends, but shouldn't I be? They keep me sane and help me over the bumps in the road.
Technical Saavy - the ability to figure it out and not panic has helped me immensely this year.
Opportunities - on the horizon. Some I can see, some I have a glimpse of, some I can only hope for.
Determination - to get things done, to make things work, to never give up (although sometimes I feel like it - that's where friends come in!).
Photographs - to help capture fond memories.

May 20, 2003

Tuesday Morning

Redwood Forests - scenic, majestic, peaceful, serene;
Social Movements - for the excitement, for the benefit, for the possibilites;
Interesting People - to talk to and think big thoughts with;
Communities of Practice - that welcome newbies into their circle;
Fuzzy Socks - keeping my feet warm and toasty.

May 19, 2003

Sunday (or is it Monday?)

Time to Reflect - there hasn't been much time for this in the last year and I am grateful that I have been able to do more of this recently;
Time to Spend with Children - again, never seems like enough time. I am looking forward to spending some quality time with my children, especially after Pepperdine is done;
Time with Friends - it's been a long time since I have opened myself fully to friends. I am very selective about who I let in, and I am very blessed to have a few close people that I trust with everything I have;
Time Alone - this too is important. Time to get in touch with who I am and the direction my life needs to go;
Time - grateful that Heavenly Father has given me time to learn, to love, to laugh, to cry, to experience life.

May 16, 2003

Friday Night

Consistency - grateful that my kids have had some measure of consistancy in their lives so that they don't get blown about by the winds of change as others might be;
Missionaries - for the ones that brought me the gospel many years ago, for the ones that serve in the field giving it their all, and for the ones that visit my home and bring the spirit of the Lord to my family and friends;
Purpose - because knowing who you are and what you are here to do enables you to walk the straight and narrow path with confidence and peace;
Elder A - specificially because of the way he was able to touch the heart of a friend;
Elder T - for singing, and playing guitar, and friendshipping Andy last night.

May 15, 2003

Thursday

Hmmmm... What am I thankful for today?

Biscuits and Gravy - enough said :) ;
Warm Weather - not hot, mind you - just warm;
Good Moods - chipper spirts, sunny personalities... makes the day more fun;
Final Episodes - what drama! Keeps me hanging on till next season;
Sandels - so I can be as close to barefoot as possible and still be presentable at work.

May 14, 2003

Wednesday Morning

Quiet Mornings - that hour of quiet time between 6-7am that allows me to get some work done;
Seminary - for helping teens put on the armor of God before they head out to school for the day;
Alarm Clocks - that get you up on time, when you set them, and for Kurt waking up early to get the boys to town by 6:15am;
Swim Team - giving two young men a physical outlet and something to strive for;
Shady Rocks - under the tree for quiet reflection, vigorous discussion, or just enjoying the company of a friend.

May 13, 2003

Appreciation

That I am allowed to do what I want and be what I want;
That my friends are at least outwardly welcome in my home;
That my children are loved;
That he attends church regularly;
That he works hard.

Tuesday Afternoon

Computers - because they allow me to do great things, stretch my imagination, and make my mind work overtime;
Spring - a time of rebirth, when everything is new again;
IM - let's me keep in touch;
Church - helps me keep focused on what is important, helps me stay on the path I should be on;
Denim - because it matches just about anything!

May 12, 2003

Monday Morning

Walking - seems like so much gets said and done while walking. Maybe the motion opens up the mind and frees the spirit?
Talking - being able to say what you think, being able to communicate what you need, being able to comfort and share;
Singing - singing songs back to friends, singing praises to God, walking with a song in my heart;
Learning - about myself and others and how the world works;
Crying - tears of sadness, tears of gladness, tears of wonder and amazement.

May 11, 2003

Sunday morning

Moonlight - bathing the countryside with a beautiful glow;
Stars - twinkling brightly, infinite, drawing my eyes toward heaven;
Horses - for their power, their beauty, their strength;
Emotions - for connecting me to other people;
Sunshine - and a lazy afternoon in the park.

May 10, 2003

Gratitude on the Road

Seagulls, and Seashells, and Sounds of the Ocean - peaceful and eternal;
Blankets of Wildflowers - making the drive over the hill a beautiful rainbow of color;
Strangers with a Dog - a friendly golden face and nice people to chat with;
Inner Dialogue - for making me think and helping me reflect;
Down Comforters - the softest, coziest blanket I have ever slept with.

May 09, 2003

On My Way Home

Going Home - and very grateful for that!
Being Connected - to people who serve as an inspiration in my life;
Great Ideas - for having the opportunity to be exposed to great ideas that expand my mind and develop my soul;
Mentors - that have shaped who I am and guided what I do;
Books - for opening up the world to new ideas, for connecting me to great people and places, for inspiring my imagination and taking me to places I never imagined going.

May 08, 2003

Thursday

Workshop - went very well, gave out all of my handouts, and made some good contacts;
Text Messages - that put me at ease before my presentation and made me smile;
My kids - missing them makes me remember how grateful I am for them and what a true blessing they are;
My friends - for loving me;
Friday - because I get to go home.

May 07, 2003

Looking over the Bay

I'm sitting on my 9th floor room, overlooking the bay in San Diego. I forgot how much I loved this area until I drove down here yesterday. When I hit the lottery, this is where I am going!

The Ocean - for its immensity, for the peaceful rhythm of the waves, for the sounds and the smells, for reminding me that we are all connected;
Brandon - did I mention him already? For understanding my reluctance to leave yesterday and for making the transition a little easier;
Dinner - last night was awesome!
Walking - back to the hotel from the restaurant last night with some people, it was nice to stroll by the bay and enjoy the company;
Peers - to discuss training issues, get ideas, and commiserate over budget problems. It's nice to know I'm not alone.
Amanda - grateful that she has made the decision to come back home.

May 06, 2003

Today

Today I am thankful for many things, including the following:

Opportunity - to attend this conference, renew friendships, network a little, make a presentation, and discover new ideas;
Expenses - grateful that most of the expenses for this conference will be covered by the scholarship and by the college;
Brandon - for diving right in and helping out without even blinking an eye and for being a good friend;
Transportation - glad I can take a college car and not my own;
Articles of Faith - for the opportunity they give me to share what I believe in.

May 05, 2003

Thank You Kevin

A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words. ~Unknown

I woke up to this in my email... it was absolutely what I needed to see this morning. Made me sit back misty-eyed and think for a few minutes.

Kevin - you never know when you meet someone what an impact they will have in your life. Gratitude here for helping me remember what is important, for helping me keep perspective, for listening.
Matthew - for his curiosity, for his determination, for his sweet smile. It will be interesting to see how he is influenced, and influences, his older sisters and brother.
Kyle - for his desire to seek the truth and his willingness to do his part.
Andy - for the music he brings to our home and the humor he brings to my life.
Rene - for being a kindred spirit, a sounding board, and someone who I trust to tell me exactly what she thinks.

May 04, 2003

Sunday Afternoon

Bishop Price - for his enthusiasm, his insight, his friendship, and most of all, for his spirit;
Relief Society lessons - that for some reason have been aimed right at me the last few weeks;
Washing machines - couldn't even imagine doing laundry for 8 people by hand!
Movie Night - a fun way to fellowship friends;
Chicken Noodle Soup - hits the spot when I am chilled and not feeling too well.

May 03, 2003

Spoke to Soon

Ok, so when I triumphantly called Rene' after racquetball yesterday afternoon and declared that I had not been wiped out, that I held my own, that I was ready to take on the world... well, I may have spoke too soon. I should have waited until this morning. Oh the aches! Oh the stiffness! Oh the folly of it all! Alright, time to stop whining... guess I just need to get out and exercise more!

Rainbows - What a glorious thing to see on the way home yesterday. They must be God's gift to us as a reminder that every storm soon ends and hope is on the horizon;
Hot Showers - sure felt good on my aching hips;
Kittens - with little feline antics, who needs television for entertainment?
Saturday mornings - sleeping in...unless Matt wakes up first, of course;
Hugs and kisses - there is nothing better than snuggling in a warm bed with little kid arms around my neck and sweet kisses on my face (even if they do come into my bed at 6am on a Saturday).

May 02, 2003

Friday Morning

Parent-Teacher Conferences - a chance to connect with my children's education;
Iraq - grateful that the war is over;
Freedom - to do, to think, to worship as I see fit;
Responsibility - to keep me focused on something other than myself;
Democracy - the only form of government worst than democracy is every other form of government!

May 01, 2003

May Day

Off to a late start today. Turns out that the battery just needed charging yesterday :)

Cell Phones - to keep me in contact with my kids;
Kym - for her intuitive and spiritual side;
My Office - so there is a place to work and for students to hang out;
Spring Weather - nothing beats a beautiful spring day to pick up a mood;
The rose I got today - because it smells nice and was a very nice gesture.

And today's bonus item:
Kisses from my babies - cute little May Day baskets made by Rachel and Matt

April 30, 2003

Wednesday Morning

Ok, my laptop wouldn't turn on this morning, so I'm a little anxious. Hopefully it just needs to be charged. Here goes my gratitude...

Grocery stores- where you can get just about anything you need by just walking down the aisle;
Rachel- for her uninhibited love of life;
Blaze - because my fantasy has always been to raise a paint horse from a young age;
Reading - because it opens up the world and takes you places you never thought you could go;
Chocolate - I think it's going to be one of THOSE days!

April 29, 2003

Tuesday Morning

Frosted Flakes - They're Grrrrrreat!
Blogs - Making it easy to write;
Kittens - Fun to watch play;
My job - Working shouldn't be so much fun;
Education - Opening my eyes to the world.

April 28, 2003

Monday morning

Guardian Angels - that watched over Kevin a week ago;
Coding - something to wrap my brain around;
PMA - and the person who introduced me to it;
Rain - to water the crops and settle the dust;
Seminary - that helps teenagers put on the armour of God before they head out for the day.

April 27, 2003

Sunday Morning

Church - for guidance, support, structure, inspiration, faith;
Andy - for doing a good job on the dishes last night without being asked;
Health - overall, I'm not in too bad of shape, and I am very thankful for that;
Walking - for being able to take the time to look around and see the wonders of nature around us;
Jesus Christ - for doing something that I'm not sure I fully comprehend.

April 26, 2003

Thank Goodness

I woke up this morning and realized how grateful I am for so many things! Today I have gratitude for:

Hot chocolate - warms me up and gets me going
Computer checkbooks - will make my task today much easier
Friends - to spend time with and care about
Online weather reports - so I can figure out what to wear in the morning
Knowledge - of where I came from, who I am, and where I am going